Okay, then. This will be a longish post, which you're free to read or
not as you please.
In my case, there are two labels that together would form a rough
approximation of my position, though I don't pretend that the
correspondence is precise in either case.
Firstly, I'd call myself a pantheist, of sorts. This is because, to me,
'God', in essence (and I use the name here to represent divinity, not in
representation of the Christian God), is the world and the universe
around us - including ourselves. Everything that exists is a part of
the overall divinity, and everything that happens is a natural internal
process of 'God'. It is self-creating, because it is everything, but it
created nothing else, because there is nothing else. This means that,
as far as I'm concerned, the 'proof' of God is that I'm standing on it,
looking at it, touching it and breathing it.
The first reaction I get at this point is usually annoyance: I'm wasting
your time. I'm playing stupid semantic games and when it comes down to
it I'm not really talking about God or religion at all. I'm just
talking about some pointless, hippy-sounding rubbish that doesn't make a
scrap of difference to anyone. My 'religion', in the end, doesn't
amount to anything. After all, since the natural world is undeniably
there, it isn't a matter of faith, and therefore can't be subject of a
religion. But this is one of the points I'm often prompted to make when
people attack 'religion'. As we've said, it's often the case that what
they're actually attacking is one specific religion or group of
religions. There are those who persistently demand proof of religion
safe in the presumption that it's something that can't be proved - and
with many forms of religion this is true, as believers themselves will
often happily admit. This then often feeds into the attacker's
expectations, and leads them to their conclusion: 'inability to prove'
equals 'disproof'. In attempting to show why no-one should believe,
they really only offer reasons why they don't. Of course, this has
little bearing on the believer, who will have his or her own reasons for
holding to their faith, and doesn't require the 'objective proof' that
the challenger will be demanding.
So, my religion doesn't count as a religion, and my 'God' isn't any kind
of god. But my 'God' has everything that many of the other gods have:
it has consciousness, because all consciousness is part of it. It's
intelligent, because all intelligence is part of it. It's omnipresent,
because, well, it's everywhere at once. It's all-knowing, because all
knowledge is contained within it, however much of it we might know at
any given time: it's all there. Perhaps you could even say it has will
and a plan, because the progression and development of the Cosmos has a
distinct direction - albeit it's a 'plan' that we may only ever glimpse
through our science and exploration. My 'God', of course, doesn't
perform miracles or bend the laws of physics, because it *is* the laws
of physics. 'Miracles' happen every day, if by 'miracle' we mean
something fantastically clever and awe-inspiring. If by 'miracle' we
mean something supernatural, then of course there can be no such thing,
because there's no such thing as 'supernatural'. Whatever exists is
natural. (As Terry Pratchett once pointed out, the supposed ability of
a man to turn water into wine is lauded as miraculous, and yet the
ability of nature to turn sunlight into wine is taken for granted.)
Is a god required to make demands of us humans? If so, mine isn't a
god. It makes no demands of me - unless you include the simple demands
of continued existence. Nor does it answer prayers; but then, why would
I expect it to? It doesn't offer me salvation; but then, it doesn't
threaten me with damnation either. It bestows blessings and gifts on me
in abundance - but at the same time it also curses me and hurts me and
subjects me to suffering. Why? Wouldn't it owe me some sort of
explanation, if it was really a god? Well, no. How could it possibly
owe me anything? Does it even notice me? Why should it? And why
should I expect it to be kind? I don't notice each and every cell that
makes up my body: they're part of me, but I concern myself with the
whole thing, as a rule, and the major workings of it - not every tiny
individual component. And if I lose a few cells along the way, I
wouldn't care. But shouldn't a god be merciful and loving? Not unless
you happen to believe in a god that's merciful and loving - and that
doesn't constitute all of them, by any measure. That's only what some
people believe deity should be according to their own view of it.
So that's why my 'God' qualifies as a god - at least as far as I'm
concerned; and let's face it, nothing else is required when it comes to
defining my religious beliefs. But this weird perspective just isn't
*necessary*, is it? There's no *reason* to attribute divinity to things
that clearly don't need it: it's nonsense to do so. Well, that's
partially where the faith comes in. I just believe that the Cosmos
merits a certain reverence, as the biggest, most powerful thing in
existence. If the Cosmos doesn't deserve that much, then certainly
nothing else does. And besides, I do choose to believe that there is a
greater purpose to all this; something that's always going to be beyond
my ability to comprehend it - but that nevertheless rolls on inevitably,
with everything that happens, whether it appears good or bad to me,
contributing to that overall end. Is there any logical reason to
believe that? No. But I don't need a logical reason. It's just what
feels right to me.
Some would argue that religion requires obligation or obedience. But
the definition I've given here clearly doesn't require either, so
obviously whatever my insane delusion about divinity might be, it isn't
truly religion. Well, it's true that a pantheistic viewpoint such as
the above doesn't impose requirements on me except, again, the basic
needs I have to satisfy to continue my existence. It certainly doesn't
impose any moral code on me. The Cosmos doesn't care whether I live a
good life or an evil one. But even if the Cosmos doesn't require
specific standards of behaviour from me, I do. I have a moral code that
comes from my own consideration, my own conscience, my own judgement
and, if nothing else, my general desire to do as I would be done to.
Whether you'd call that a religious obligation or just an ethical one
doesn't really make much difference to me, since obviously the two
amount to the same thing from my point of view.
I said there were two labels. The other I use frequently is 'pagan'.
The Cosmos is a big thing. Too big for me to fit it all into my
consciousness. I couldn't possibly accommodate everything there is in
my head, even if I knew everything there was to know. So while I can
learn any amount of hard scientific facts about the world around me,
sometimes there are times when I want to reflect on more abstract
things, so for these purposes I employ representative personifications
of various phenomena, processes and concepts; natural and man-made
(i.e., natural). Put simply, I do what Bill accuses all religious
people of doing: I create gods. I'm not going to list them all here;
that'd serve no purpose. But their existence in my worldview doesn't
affect any of those scientific facts. They represent elements of the
world; they change and develop and interact according to my
understanding, and they allow me - or at least help me - to relate
myself in a spiritual sense (whatever that might mean) to the Cosmos
that surrounds me and of which I am part. It's perhaps not the same
definition that most pagans would probably use - but it's a pagan
definition, all the same.
Again, I know this has been a long post - but since you had the good
will to ask the question (and apparently mean it), I owe you the
courtesy of a thorough answer. And maybe now you're wondering why on
Earth I'd expect you to buy any of this rubbish. Why would you accept
that my way of looking at things is right? I've offered no proof, and
frankly, I wouldn't be surprised if you can't see any sense in it at
all. The answer is that I don't expect you will - and frankly, I'd be a
little concerned if you did. You're your own person, with your own
views and your own intelligence. It's up to you to decide how you think
about the world you're in, just as it's up to me to decide for me. We
may have beliefs in common; we may differ on some things. That's how it
should be. If we disagree then as far as I'm concerned we talk it over
until either one of us changes our mind, or we come to a compromise, or
we decide it's not worth the hassle. The purpose of this exercise as
far as I'm concerned is solely to demonstrate that religion does NOT
have to conform to the profile assumed for it by Bill, Chris, and
numerous other anti-theists on these groups. It doesn't have to involve
a loving creator God. It doesn't have to involve proselytisation. It
doesn't have to be relevant to anyone but the individual. And this is
only mine. There are hundreds more.